Hidup yang terkapling..

kita terbiasa hidup terkapling,
tk umur sekian,
sd umur sekian,
smp umur sekian,
smu umur sekian,
lalu kuliah, habis kuliah dapat kerja,
lalu target selanjutnya menikah kira-kira umur sekian,
dan diharapkan punya anak umur sekian.

sehingga ketika ada seseorang keluar dari kotak maya kapling itu,
orang lain bertanya tanya,
karena mereka terbiasa hidup terkapling,
maka ketika mereka melihat seseorang hidup keluar dari garis kapling
mereka terheran-heran..
Dan jika seseorang tak mampu mengejar garis kapling itu, dia merasa gagal

kenapa memangnya menikah dulu baru kuliah?
kenapa memangnya masih kuliah padahal sudah tua?
kenapa memangnya sudah tua belum menikah?
kenapa memangnya belum menikah padahal sudah kerja?
kenapa memangnya belum kerja sudah menikah?
kenapa memangnya punya anak dulu baru menikah?

bayang-bayang pengkaplingan itu terus menghantui kita (kita?! elo aja kali gue sih engga)

a good reason

나가 지금 필요로 하는 무엇을 좋은 이유,
우리의 아름다운 친교를 부풀리지 않을 이유,
이유이다 아닙니다 파괴하는 우리의 심혼을…

친애하는 친구, 나, 그러나 나는 어떻게 인가 당신을 말하기 위하여 가는 성가대에게서 종료하고 싶은가?
어떻게.?
어떻게.?

저에서 혼동 순간에서 아주 인.

tatz

h.a.p.p.y

One day, a Friend sent this quote to me:

Orang yang bahagia itu akan selalu
menyediakan waktu untuk Membaca, karena membaca itu sumber hikmah…
menyediakan waktu Tertawa, karena tertawa itu musiknya jiwa…
menyediakan waktu untuk Berfikir, karena berfikir itu pokok kemajuan…
menyediakan waktu untuk Beramal, karena beramal itu pangkal kejayaan…
menyediakan waktu untuk Bersenda, karena bersenda itu akan membuat muda selalu,
dan menyediakan waktu Beribadah, karena beribadah itu adalah sumber dari
segala ketenangan jiwa…

And yesterday, I read this interesting comment:

‘Happy feelings and sunshine won’t pay the rent’

if only..

what am I doing now? Gosh…

I still stiff around you, wondering that you might change the rudder then come to my lap with a giant ecstasy..

It’ll never ever happen, don’t you get that..don’t you know the main rules, don’t you capture the exact frame?? don’t you..don’t yaa…???

It’ll be the same, whether you want to settle, nor you want to continue the argument about the ideal life with your own frame version…the reality wont change, in fact it’s bites.

With the fact, that I’m still holding my gut to specifies the 2 bar of web frame with stories and pictures about her, her diary and her thoughts, her pictures in any occasions and a bunch of friends surround her as a symbol that she is still single and ready to mingle kinda person.

While I’m here hoping that my life can be re run with the revision edition version that cutting all the craps scene, the bird brained moment, and the ugly path ways that leads me here in the reality of unwanted condition.

I quit from smoking a while ago, after I read your journal about how you

really hate a smoking person, peculiarly the one who did it in a same vehicle with you.

I starts eat some healthy foods, after you said that people always late for their decision to be healthy after they got some troubles in their healthy records, and you said that it all happen because of their foods pattern.

See?, you are my lead of life, my positivity wheel, my dynamite of blue then why I can not be with you…??

if only I use condom 2 years ago, maybe I’m still a freely man right now…if only…

this is only a story from tatz